I’m not one to vent, but last New Year’s, I spent it with an amazing girl. The love of my life, in fact. And we spent a very long time together. Then she left me and for some stupid reason, I CAN’T FUCKING LET IT GO. Its been so long and my mind is still locked into her. I don’t understand it. Everything I do brings up some memory of her. It is a complete surprise to me that I don’t drink myself into oblivion every night. I think it’d help but I can’t bring myself to it.